-lie on the floor in a beautiful shop, hand in hand with an awesome friend, and stay and watch people go past
-play hide and seek in a shopping centre. be caught by security.
-play hide and seek in a shopping centre. don't be caught by security.
-play house in ikea
-befriend small children
-have picnics in awkward public spaces. with full silverware, china teapots and all.
-spend days just lying in the ground.
-run through the rain
-take lots of photos
-dress however i want. whenever i want.
-not worry about what others see when the look at me
-throw food at other people
-get messy
-have a harry potter stye duel with strangers
-be spontaneous
-take a train somewhere unfamiliar and spend the day there
-skip instead of walking
-dance and sing and enjoy music publicly, even if i'm the only one who can hear it
-make my own things instead of buying them
-walk barefoot through the city
-get thoroughly lost and emerge with cake and a smile
-draw my own map of the city
-find a place that is mine and only mine somewhere public
-roll down hills
-use playgrounds
-cook on a trangia in public, because i can and they can't
-learn to do something new
-find a way of earning money that i love to do
-take photos of anything and everything
-live each day fully in the moment, and finish each day with a smile on my face
somewhere, I think I have a blog.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
Friday, March 25, 2011
A Maximum Ride Series Playlist, in no particular order (yet)
When I find out where my copy of School's Out Forever went, I'm going to read the books again and annotate like crazy with songs. Until then, I'm putting the playlist up, in the hopes I can be bothered to sort it later.
Name Artist
All Summer Kid Cudi, Best Coast and Rostam Batmanglij
Coin Laundry Lisa Mitchell
Friends For Lovers Brighten
Falling Out Of Love At This Volume Bright Eyes
Heels Over Head Boys Like Girls
God & Satan Biffy Clyro
Brielle Sky Sailing
Idiot Heart Sunset Rubdown
Come One, Come All All Time Low
Back of my Head. Short Stack
Icarus Jason Webley
Half Life Imogen Heap
8 AM The Summer Obsession
How You Love Me Now Hey Monday
Tomorrow Nic Cester
The Time Has Come The Dresden Dolls
Lyrical Lies Cute Is What We Aim For
Burning Bridges The Summer Obsession
Impossible Girl #1 Kim Boekbinder
Behavior Amanda Palmer
Science Is Golden The Grates
Don't Trust Me 3OH!3
Black Cat Mayday Parade
Let Me Take You There Plain White T's
Break Up the Concrete The Pretenders
Dance, Dance Fall Out Boy
Bubbles Biffy Clyro
Every Me And Every You Placebo
Chokechain 3OH!3
Clinton St. Girl Wakey!Wakey!
Baby Blue Eyes A Rocket To The Moon
Oh! Gravity Switchfoot
2 Atoms In A Molecule Noah And The Whale
Hero Heroine Boys Like Girls
Astronaut Amanda Palmer
Oh, It Is Love Hellogoodbye
Not A Second To Waste A Rocket To The Moon
Choose To Be Me Sunrise Avenue
Can't take it in Imogen Heap
Icarus Lives! Periphery
Double Knots You & Yourn
Dirty Business The Dresden Dolls
Runs In the Family Amanda Palmer
The Shake (Awful Feeling) My American Heart
We Are Young 3OH!3
On Invisible Wings Mikelangelo And The Black Sea Gentlemen
Awakening Switchfoot
Shut Up I Am Dreaming of Places Where Lovers Have Wings Sunset Rubdown & Spencer Krug
Do You Remember The Summer Obsession
Waking Up in Vegas Katy Perry
Every Little Thing Tullycraft
Sticks & Stone Jónsi
In My Mind Amanda Palmer (Featuring Brian Viglione)
His Girl Friday The Academy Is...
Where's My Angel Metro Station
Love Will Tear Us Apart Evelyn Evelyn
Seventeen forever Metro Station
Day & Night Billie Piper
In Colour HeyHiHello!
All We Know Paramore
The Poison The All American Rejects
To The Sky Owl City
Know Your Enemy Green Day
Free Falling The Summer Obsession
Broken Leg Bluejuice
Corrosive The Summer Obsession
Baby We're Invincible A Rocket To The Moon
Over My Head The Summer Obsession
Jump Simple Plan
Fear Of Flying A Rocket To The Moon
Hurt Johnny Cash
When I Grow Up Garbage
The Point of It All Amanda Palmer
Drumming Song Florence & The Machine
Jocasta Noah And The Whale
Where Is Your Boy Tonight? Fall Out Boy
Alice (Underground) Avril Lavigne
White Winter Hymnal Fleet Foxes
Death Said The Summer Obsession
Cadence of Her Last Breath Nightwish
The Sky! The Junior Varsity
The Age Of The Understatement The Last Shadow Puppets
Black Dress Kisschasy
Goodnight And Go Imogen Heap
7 Days To The Wolves Nightwish
Firestarter Dan Parsons
When I Think About Angels Cute Is What We Aim For
Many Of Horror Biffy Clyro
Time to Wander Gypsy & The Cat
Christina Zombina & the Skeletones
Famous Last Words My Chemical Romance
Bad Body Double Imogen Heap
Hymn for the Dead Anti-Flag
Starlight Muse
Mountains Biffy Clyro
Curse Of The Curves Cute Is What We Aim For
Don't Quit! Not Quite! HeyHiHello!
I Must Belong Somewhere Bright Eyes
Bruises Chairlift
Name Artist
All Summer Kid Cudi, Best Coast and Rostam Batmanglij
Coin Laundry Lisa Mitchell
Friends For Lovers Brighten
Falling Out Of Love At This Volume Bright Eyes
Heels Over Head Boys Like Girls
God & Satan Biffy Clyro
Brielle Sky Sailing
Idiot Heart Sunset Rubdown
Come One, Come All All Time Low
Back of my Head. Short Stack
Icarus Jason Webley
Half Life Imogen Heap
8 AM The Summer Obsession
How You Love Me Now Hey Monday
Tomorrow Nic Cester
The Time Has Come The Dresden Dolls
Lyrical Lies Cute Is What We Aim For
Burning Bridges The Summer Obsession
Impossible Girl #1 Kim Boekbinder
Behavior Amanda Palmer
Science Is Golden The Grates
Don't Trust Me 3OH!3
Black Cat Mayday Parade
Let Me Take You There Plain White T's
Break Up the Concrete The Pretenders
Dance, Dance Fall Out Boy
Bubbles Biffy Clyro
Every Me And Every You Placebo
Chokechain 3OH!3
Clinton St. Girl Wakey!Wakey!
Baby Blue Eyes A Rocket To The Moon
Oh! Gravity Switchfoot
2 Atoms In A Molecule Noah And The Whale
Hero Heroine Boys Like Girls
Astronaut Amanda Palmer
Oh, It Is Love Hellogoodbye
Not A Second To Waste A Rocket To The Moon
Choose To Be Me Sunrise Avenue
Can't take it in Imogen Heap
Icarus Lives! Periphery
Double Knots You & Yourn
Dirty Business The Dresden Dolls
Runs In the Family Amanda Palmer
The Shake (Awful Feeling) My American Heart
We Are Young 3OH!3
On Invisible Wings Mikelangelo And The Black Sea Gentlemen
Awakening Switchfoot
Shut Up I Am Dreaming of Places Where Lovers Have Wings Sunset Rubdown & Spencer Krug
Do You Remember The Summer Obsession
Waking Up in Vegas Katy Perry
Every Little Thing Tullycraft
Sticks & Stone Jónsi
In My Mind Amanda Palmer (Featuring Brian Viglione)
His Girl Friday The Academy Is...
Where's My Angel Metro Station
Love Will Tear Us Apart Evelyn Evelyn
Seventeen forever Metro Station
Day & Night Billie Piper
In Colour HeyHiHello!
All We Know Paramore
The Poison The All American Rejects
To The Sky Owl City
Know Your Enemy Green Day
Free Falling The Summer Obsession
Broken Leg Bluejuice
Corrosive The Summer Obsession
Baby We're Invincible A Rocket To The Moon
Over My Head The Summer Obsession
Jump Simple Plan
Fear Of Flying A Rocket To The Moon
Hurt Johnny Cash
When I Grow Up Garbage
The Point of It All Amanda Palmer
Drumming Song Florence & The Machine
Jocasta Noah And The Whale
Where Is Your Boy Tonight? Fall Out Boy
Alice (Underground) Avril Lavigne
White Winter Hymnal Fleet Foxes
Death Said The Summer Obsession
Cadence of Her Last Breath Nightwish
The Sky! The Junior Varsity
The Age Of The Understatement The Last Shadow Puppets
Black Dress Kisschasy
Goodnight And Go Imogen Heap
7 Days To The Wolves Nightwish
Firestarter Dan Parsons
When I Think About Angels Cute Is What We Aim For
Many Of Horror Biffy Clyro
Time to Wander Gypsy & The Cat
Christina Zombina & the Skeletones
Famous Last Words My Chemical Romance
Bad Body Double Imogen Heap
Hymn for the Dead Anti-Flag
Starlight Muse
Mountains Biffy Clyro
Curse Of The Curves Cute Is What We Aim For
Don't Quit! Not Quite! HeyHiHello!
I Must Belong Somewhere Bright Eyes
Bruises Chairlift
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Helplessness
I'm not brave. I'm not good in an emergency. I don't like that I'm this way, but I am, for now. In an emergency, I panic and almost start to shake. My knees feel as if they will buckle, and my hands tremble, especially if whatever I'm in the middle of is important/serious. Last year, when I stopped to help a mother whose little girl had just hit her head on a shop window, I almost couldn't get my phone out to call the ambulance the mother asked me to call in her hysteria. I couldn't tell them what street we were on, nor remember to stay on the line. My hysteria was a little more contained than the girl's mother's , but it was certainly there- I was still shaking hours later. But the one thing I did do right was stop.
Today, on my way home from university with my friend, I was almost run over by a person on a bike. At the same time, we passed a girl who looked to be about 15- she was barefoot, clad only in a blue nightgown and a hospital blanket, a strange expression on her face, walking at a slow, steady pace. This scene taking place about 400 metres from the Royal Women's Hospital is something that should alert most people to the fact that something is wrong. But I saw her, and like the other pedestrians around us, I did not stop to help. My friend, however, is braver than I, and once she registered what she had seen, she turned us back towards the girl and asked her if she was okay. She barely looked up, mumbled responses and never stopped walking. We took this as a bad sign- my friend also noted her lips were blue- and walked back as fast as we could to the hospital in order to alert someone to her location. We got our message across, and left. But I cannot help thinking that if I had been alone, I would probably have walked right by, knowing that I should have stopped. I am not brave. And I should be.
Why
I want to make something here. I want my words to be read, and have some meaning. What this is:
- A rant space
- A squee space
- An adore space
- A hate space
- A place to outpour myself when too much is inside
- A beautiful mess
- Unordered
- A part of me
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)